Well, it’s time for my meltdown, right on schedule. I’m feeling overwhelmed right now.
My house is dirty. And cluttered. But we are so busy, so overworked, so exhausted, that it isn’t top priority. But I think we all know that coming home to a dirty/messy house makes you feel not great. Molly from My Happy House posted her bedroom (post-baby, showing how Cam fits in there!) and that set me off. It was SO NEAT AND CLEAN. It wasn’t cluttered with a billion things. I want that. I want NO CLUTTER. I need to throw things out. It’s just finding the time/energy.
I got two days off in April. Big Daddy too. I feel like kicking people when they ask how my weekend was. (“I WORKED.”) Which, clearly, is not the appropriate response. Every once in a while I get to that point, where everything just pisses me off and I feel just infuriated by anyone who has it the tiniest bit easier than me. B goes to school all day Monday through Thursday, and works just about full time on top of that. I work full time and then Old Navy on the weekend. We both are on our feet and tired a lot of the time.
But that doesn’t make it ok for our house to smell like a pug’s anus.
Plus, with this circle of tired-ness and busy-ness, I neglect reading YOUR blogs.
See?
Yes, I have many folders. Most are self explanatory. List C are blogs I basically stalk and just read, not comment. Lists A and B are my blogs I follow and love, with List A being more my “ohmygoshiwannameetyou” blog BFF’s. List A & B are the blogs I predominately comment on. Clearly, they’ve been neglected, because my time is in small segments where I go on and just read what I’m going to read and not comment on. Sometimes I’ll jump on a post from twitter, etc, but mostly that’s it.
I feel like I’m neglecting my blog friends and followers, and that feels NOT GOOD.
For the next week or two I’m going to probably spend more time reading/commenting (blogs) and cleaning/organizing (house). So hang in there with me. And thanks for sticking around even though I basically suck.
If anyone wants to come clean my house you are more than welcome to it. Thanks for witnessing my regularly scheduled meltdown.
Amen.
Also- you have until Midnight to enter my Lydia & Pugs giveaway!!! Winner announced Monday 5/2!
I hate it when people as how was your weekend and they know you work….I really just want to drop kick them in the shins but usually they are related to you somehow so you can’t assault them. But anyhoo I wish you luck with the cleaning….I found pug hair on the stove today….hmmmm that can’t be good.
Jenn
I honestly didn’t know you worked that much. Only two days off in April? Wow—I would’ve snapped by now. I don’t have one job and I still manage to get even more behind on the blogs I read…people will understand if you haven’t been commenting lately.
Take it easy!!!
Sorry dude…I don’t know what to say except HAHAHAHAHA at the whole “pug’s anus” comparison!
Hope things mellow out soon!
Love,
Laura
I so, totally understand. I have taken sick days–actual sick days due to sickness–and found myself cleaning the house in spite of it because well, the house was a mess and I had time.
I also hate the ‘how was your weekend’ question and the ‘what fun plans have you got for the weekend’ and the ‘what do you like to do in your spare time’ question. I guess we bring this on ourselves (by being too busy to have a good weekend, etc), but it still sucks! Hope you find some time to do what you need to and a little of what you want!
We understand, and love you regardless!! We know how busy you are! (I’m pretending I’m in the top? haha). Life can get really overwhelming and sometimes you just want to break down. and that’s okay, I do it often. My house is a big ol mess too and it FRUSTRATES ME. I hate when my friends can do whatever they want without worrying about over drafting their bank accounts. I get upset when people ask me what we’re doing with out wedding loot (PAYING BILLS, THAT’S WHAT!) So I understand.
But honestly? reading blogs does relieve my stress and so does blogging, so hopefully it does for you too!
Ugh, I tried to leave a comment earlier and it didn’t post. STAB. Anyway, I understand the feeling of a meltdown. Life can get so incredibly overwhelming that you don’t feel like you have enough time to breathe. It’s frustrating. Trust me, I get it! And I completley understand the feelling of anger towards people whose lives are seamingly less complication. I get so upset when I’m with friends who can go out to eat every night and shop without fear of overdrafting their accounts. I get upset when I talk to people who have a perfect job with no stress. I get mad when people ask us what we’re doing with our wedding loot (BILLS, THAT’S WHAT!) I’m with you there.
And don’t even get me started on my cluttered house…
My biggest complaint, ever. When SAHW complain about their “to-do” list of laundry, dishes, dinner, vacuuming, dry-cleaning and the grocer. Hello. The rest of the world has to do that too. Except we have jobs/school/class/kids on top of it all!
I always {always} am like “psh that woman doesn’t realize how good she has it” but I’ve realized that being bitter/jealous only puts me in a worse mood. Now I focus on the good. Like how all of this blood, sweat, tears, sacrifice, sleepless nights are going to put is in a more secure place for the future. What doesn’t kill us makes us stronger!!!
<3 you chica.
I am right there with you. Work is CRAZY, I am in finals for grad school, company is coming, we’re having a party this weekend… and the house is a mess, the toilet smells like pee, and there is laundry all over the floor. EGADS!