So, I am having what I like to call a small breakdown. I am behind on EVERYTHING. Blogging and blog reading, housekeeping, laundry, correspondence, grocery shopping, WEIGHT WATCHERS… everything. I need 5-10 more hours in a day. I can’t do anything but work at work (ladies who can read blogs and use social networking at your job- count your blessings immediately) and am barely functioning in the hours I have outside of the office.
I’m exhausted every morning. I actually DRANK COFFEE this morning (I never drink coffee) because buying Red Bull in bulk is out of my budget. I have to force myself to get in bed at night so I can avoid being tired. It never works. I rarely get to see my husband enough. The thought of just going to the grocery store frustrates me because of the time it will take. I haven’t had a day off since New Years.
So, that’s where I’m at. And the massive snow today and weather-related traffic (and not being able to see Stephanie tonight because of it… snow has canceled our last few get-togethers!) isn’t helping! So, readers, please don’t forget about me. HUGE thanks to Hannah and KMSull for being so supportive and there for me lately. Just… hope I’ll get back on track. Back to KJ-ness.
PS- I’ll leave you with the picture I drew on a coworker’s whiteboard of the pugs. Can you tell which is which? They’ve caused quite a stir in the office. It’s rumored that Dixie resembles a retarded chameleon.
PPS- Today I’ve been married to Big Daddy for 10 months. Has it really only been that long? I’m pretty sure it’s been like 16 years :-D
Oh man, I know the feeling! I think I hate it most when people tell me it sounds like I need a break. (No, I have so much to do, WHY WOULD I TAKE A BREAK?!!) Anyway, hang in there… and become a jittering coffee freak like me.
It’s ok, we all have shitastic weeks. I’m feeling craptastic about some shiz lately too- it’ll be ok. You’re awesome, and your blog and blog peeps will be here, waiting, when the funk disappears :)
Oh I’ve been behind too! We had such a packed few days last weekend that on Tuesday night my husband and I were in bed and out at 7:15 we were that tired!! I feel for you, I wish I could help you out! Seems like lately everyone has been just bogged down. Don’t worry, we’ll be here and see you around. :)
:( I’m sorry you’ve been down lately, I hope things start looking up soon. Being away from the hubs is never easy but yay for being married ten months! It flies doesn’t it?!
I’m afraid I have to concur that Dixie does slightly resemble a chameleon, it’s something about her feet I think…
Okay good, glad to hear you’re alive! I was seriously becoming more and more concerned that you had fell into a black hole and were never going to come back :( BUT yea dude, life, it’s frickin’ hard! AND that picture made me lol.
Take this from an older lady, stop being so hard on yourself. It will get done eventually. Don’t worry about it. But let me give you a little advice, get some sleep! It makes a world of difference in your mood and your outlook. I know it’s hard when you are waiting up for your husband but you need to survive as well.
Wish me luck after 16 years of rescuing pugs we are getting our first pug puppy in years!
Well, I’m Pug lovin’ check it and see
I got a fever some pugs, there are three
Come on pugs, do you do more than dance?
I’m Pug lovin’
I’m Pug lovin’
{my attempts at making you smile – feel free to share with the puglets}
aww *hugs*
Here’s to hoping it’ll get better!
Hang in there, girl! You can do it. If you ever need anything e-mail me. I have g-chat, but I don’t use that e-mail address for all my fun stuff. I’d be happy to give my gmail address to you though if you want to talk.
Also, if you and B ever visit your family in Kansas City (I think his aunt or cousins – do I remember right), we have to meet up.
I very feel your pain……when I am having the kind of week I am having, and it looks like you are too, I remember this,: if you are going through hell, KEEP going. Apparently quoted from Churchill. Whatever.
Dixie, chameleon? No…..but did she get into yournspecial beer? Cuz she looks a little drunk………
It’s ok puggie… (a new nickname! weehaw!) we’re all here waiting for you when ya get back! <3
everyone has days/weeks/months like this! I love how drinking coffee is your last resort, dear jesus…days like that im like okay give me the adderall and the coffee and send me on my way.
oh, and even the bloggers who look like they have it all together and manage a perfect balancing act? i swear, they get behind on things too.
xoxoloveyou!!!
Awwwww thinking of you!!! I know you’re going through a tough transition! Haven’t forgotten about you! Hang in there!
Loves and hugs to you Kelly! I sincerely hope things start to look up for you soon, especially so you can spend more time with B.
And.. you, my friend, are one talented artist ;) Who knew you owned a new breed of chameleon dog?!
Aww girl you just do the things that are priority one for you. If that means focusing on something other than blogging to keep your sanity, then do it. I know I couldn’t keep up after a while so I took a little break.
I’m sorry things are so crap-tastic right now. :( We’ll all be here when you’re feeling better (and have more time!) No worries! (And, I don’t think if you paid me $500 I could draw that well on a dry-erase board. My college dorm room attempts were terrible.)
Love you girl!
Love the pug drawing! I was wondering where you were–don’t worry you’ll get control again!
I hate that life has been so crazy for you lately, my love. Wishing I could give you a big hug and an even bigger beer.
xoxo
I have breakdowns like that on the regular, I can relate. I’m so with you though on the time thing! I work full time, barely have enough time to update one blog, better yet both, and I can’t tell you the last time Elliot and I had an uninterrupted meal together [without the tv, wedding arguments or our computers on our lap]. It’s hard to balance real life, esp. when you have blogs to tend to, people to respond to and a husband to see. I’m with you! Hopefully things will settle down soon and you’ll be able to at least spend some QT time together on the weekend?
So sorry you are having such a hard time! Things will get easier. Love your pug drawing!!
I love you Kel! I did notice your disappearance and was wondering… I miss you mucho. Whenever you are lonely or driving from A to B and want to chat give me a ring. Also — love retarded chameleon Dixie! :)
Wait, are we allowed to say retarded on the blog?!
So sorry you are going through so much. I bet the worst is not having someone there to just be with and vent to. But it’s all for a good cause, right? Hope you start feeling better soon. And happy anniversary!
You seriously have me cracking up at my desk here! Retarded chameleon, priceless. I love your puggy drawings and I am sorry to hear about the tough time you are going through. Everyone has to learn to tread to keep their heads above water, don’t let life drown you. It isn’t worth it.
I will be here when you get back!
I saw this last night when you put the link on twitter but I was in bed & too brain-dead to properly comment.
I’m right there with you kid!! While I can blog from work, I’ve been too swamped to do more than comment. I’ve been getting home so late D’s usually 1/2 asleep on the couch by then. We’ve been looking for a new place & recently found out that basically the only thing we can afford in our area is a left-over-from-christmas gingerbread house! I could go on, but you catch my drift… I never say “it can’t get any worse” because it always can. I try to concentrate on the good stuff & try my best not to let crap get me down. Yeah, it doesn’t really work but it sounds good – LOL.
Just thought I’d let you know you’re not alone. If you feel the need to commiserate & unleash the fiery Jersey-girl within — I’m here. :)
Just wanted to say I love you and miss you and I hate the snow for ruining our BW3 dates, but I gotta love it for giving me snow days! I’m totally overwhelmed with life right now between work, school and owning a home. I’m so glad we aren’t actively in the middle of a cycle for the baby making because I’d probably be losing my mind right about now. I know how bad it sucks not seeing the hubs – Rick has seriously been gone Monday – Thursday almost every single week since July 2009 AND there is no end in sight. I wish we lived in the same city, I’d come have sleepovers with you!
I hope you have a great weekend full of good beer, B and healthy yet tasty foods!!! LOVE YOU!!!
I’m late in my commenting, but I’m sending you a big hug and happy thoughts. When I get feeling like that, I try to remind myself that 10 years from now, I probably won’t even remember most of the things that are annoying me now. It doesn’t make it any less miserable in the moment, but it might help refocus you on the things that are important, like hugging Big Daddy as tight as you can when you get those rare moments.
I so love when you post your drawings! Someday when you’re rich and famous and have gobs of time to entertain your fans, I think you should do a pug comic strip. Because I might die of happiness!
I have what I like to call my “Quarterly Breakdowns.” Every 3-4 months I literally lose my shit. And then I’m good for another 3-4 months. So don’t worry, stuff like this happens to everyone. Focus on your life, your work, your health, your husband, your pups and we’ll be here when you’re ready to get back to regular blogging/commenting/tweeting. Hang in there, girl!
Awee Happy 10 months!! I know EXACTLY how you feel. Some weeks I feel like I’ve got my SHIZ together, other weeks I’m all over the place and feel WAY behind on EVERYTHING (which this is one of those weeks… as I’m commenting 5 days after you posted this). I swear, I feel as women, we juggle wayyy to many things
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